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10 Random Life Lessons (From Death to Reason to Family)

Call it getting old or whatever you want but the more I find contentment in my real life the less I have the energy to share it. I’m not saying sharing your life on social media for public consumption is wrong. However, some appear to overdo it complete with powerful captions and hashtags of jubilance, which sometimes prompts you to think, “Is all this an attempt to feign a ‘happy life’?” Last year, I had lots of good and happy events, I missed sharing online because I was too busy enjoying them so much. We don’t need the likes and favourites of online strangers to validate that we are living a good and happy life.

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5 Things You Should Let Go and 5 Things You Should Embrace in Your Life

My name is Just Around The Riverbend and I have a confession to make: I strongly (gasp! an adverb) believe our lives should be in a flux. Like a river that never stops flowing, our lives should be in constant motion. Stagnation is one of the worst crimes that can be committed against human existence. If we're not moving, then we've become stagnant.

In the previous three years of my writing career (equivalent to the timeline ofwriting my novel I Killed My Friends and It Thrilled Me), I've learned a few life lessons that impacted not only my writing but also how I look at life. These lessons reshaped my mindset and philosophy. I'd grow a nose longer than Pinnochio's if I claimed I haven't changed a damn thing since the beginning of my writing journey. There are five things we need to let go and five things we need to embrace in order for our lives to be in a flux of growth.

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Types of Gluttony That Rob You of a Purposeful Life - Part 1

Gluttony brought me to where I am today. 

Every other night we’d dine out, my former group of friends and I. No special occasion. Nothing to celebrate. Nothing new to even talk about. We’d get together because eating was “fun”. Going to a new restaurant felt exciting. Trying a new cuisine meant you’re adventurous. Posting a photo of yourself with a food on Instagram to induce jealousy on other people made you a superstar. When all three had been exhausted, it all came back to “because eating was fun”.

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Are You an Apologetic Bitch? (3 Aspects of Your Life You Need to Stop Apologizing For)

Are you an apologetic bitch?

Do you find yourself feeling worried when someone's about to force you to do something you don't want to? Do you find yourself scared of saying "no"? Do you find yourself guilty of explaining and justifying your actions to others? If you said yes to all these questions, then you are (gasp!) an apologetic bitch.

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How to Tell If You are Confident With Your Dreams

"What are your plans?"

The question confronted me during a dinner in a Chinese restaurant with a couple of friends. One talked about the local businesses he had set up. The other mentioned the condominium she bought. They turned to me and the question came out.

“I'm writing a book and there's a change of dynamics happening with my career,” I replied.

Though I had mentioned on separate occasions to both of them that I was writing a book, I hadn't mentioned anything about my career. The steel confidence I felt when I answered the question surprised me. Flashbacks of shameful and doubtful opposite moments immediately streamed through my brain while waiting for the dim sum, pork, vegetables, and rice to arrive. “You've come a long way baby,” I mentally told myself after briefly recalling the past. “I'm proud of you.”

Being a writer is my dream. Talking about it used to be a dream within a dream, a reflection of my lack of confidence with it. But things have changed. I'm confident now.

How can you tell if you have confidence in your dreams?

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What Did You Do One Year Ago?

When we are building our dreams, there are times we feel like failure. We look at where we are and where our dreams are, and find our arm still extending in the hope of finally grasping it. But alas! We discover we are not there yet.

Let me personally tell you, to pop the bubble of perfection, that I am guilty of feeling like a failure… at times. We have been wrongfully taught and fooled by the world that success must be instant, that attaining something must be quick or else it’s not worth yearning for, and that the sooner a desire comes to life the greater the glory that comes along with it. I fall victim into those misleading thoughts whenever doubt, fear, and insecurity attempt to reclaim me. But I have faith, hope, and courage, and I know better now than to succumb to those dark, tempting thoughts of delusions. Whether the journey is long or longer, I finally know the truth - it’s the journey that matters more.

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