I admit, being an independent author is not for the faint of heart. Things aren't always easy. You can put a lot of work but the amount of return isn't guaranteed. Certainty is a fleeting cloud easily blown by a breeze. When things get tough, I tell myself these following nine reminders to keep going. Because I sometimes design images, I decided to make this journal post colorful.Read More
It was a pleasure to burn.
No, I didn't mean to plagiarize Mr. Ray Bradbury. His opening sentence in his acclaimed novel Fahrenheit 451 described perfectly how I felt (and still feel). It is, indeed, a pleasure to burn.
When I was a teenager I was insecure (weren't we all?) and I hated those who appeared the opposite (didn't we all?). Unfortunately, I didn't stave off the insecurity as much as I wanted to in my early adulthood. I kept hating, in secret, those who brimmed with fire.
I hated passionate and principled people and it irked me, because deep inside I wanted to be like them.Read More
But old habits and ancient fears die hard. One glance at Scrivener's UI intimidated me enough to quit it and go back to the arms of a linear writing software instead. Rearranging outlines and mentally writing ideas in my head consumes energy. I didn't want to use more of that energy into learning a new, and what seemed to be, a complicated software.Read More
Last year, my new life began to slowly unfold itself. An image of my dream materialised when the first draft of my upcoming novel was completed. My blogging hopped on a roller coaster ride of experimentation: changes, reversion, temporary halt, and additions. My life purpose, vision, mission, and dreams reshaped themselves after walking the path of knowing oneself. I felt on top of the world, figuratively, yearning to scream my excitement in a new found life I had. Then something stabbed me in the back, an unforeseen reality that threatened to turn my nirvana into despair, disappointment, and descent. I watched my friends and family ignore my dreams and me, their silence as painful like a knife to a heart. I felt crushed, I cried, and I cried.
Let's look at the previous paragraph in a different way. What follows next is a list of important phrases I picked from it:
- my new life
- my dream
- my upcoming novel
- my blogging
- my life purpose, vision, mission, and dreams
- my nirvana
- my friends and family
- I felt on top of the world
- I had (new found life)
- I watched
- I felt crushed
- I cried
Let's apply some equality. If my = I (my is equals to I), what do the phrases above have in common?Read More