It may be one of life's most annoying cliches but truly life is a ferris wheel. Sometimes we're at the top. Sometimes we're at the bottom. Even yours truly is not exempted from the inevitable cycle. It may be tempting to think a self-published author is immune to this. After all, if one is self-published that must mean one has won the battle against self-doubt and fear. Now, how is it possible someone who has crossed the bridge of accomplishment can fall off the track again?Read More
There was a time when I didn't like watching movies because of one of these two reasons (1) my budget couldn't afford it (2) my stubborn "creation mindset" refused most acts of consumption. Ironically, during writing my debut novel I Killed My Friends and It Thrilled Me, watching movies got ingrained into my lifestyle. It happened because I could finally afford watching a movie or two every week by then. Also, I needed to pass some time as well whenever I went to see a film. By the time I acknowledged that watching movies had become a staple of my life, I realised the cinematic act of consumption didn't get in the way of my creation. I'm pretty sure the variety of movies I watched on the big screen (alone, because watching a film by yourself rocks too) helped shaped each and every work I made from that point onwards.Read More
Ever since my awakening to my life's purpose, I've been more sensitive to messages and winks the universe sends my way. There was that time a Mark Twain quote knocked me off the cinema seat figuratively while watching The Equalizer. There was also that time I found some wisdom in Insidious: Chapter 3. Also, watching Moana made me cry silently inside the giant, dim room of the theater as the song "How Far I'll Go" tugged at my soulstrings. You see, I'm no stranger to experiencing pseudo-psychic and "New Age-ish" lightbulb moments while watching a film. It happened to me again last Monday when I watched Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle.Read More
A gigantic insect almost made me cry. The threat of a small bug about to jump on our skin can make the hair on our arms stand. Imagine a giant bug doing that to you. If you don't shit your pants, then kudos to your guts of steel. However, it's not the event of a huge insect that pushed my eyes to welling with tears but it's death instead.Read More
I believe in the idea that “we can have it all”. The sky is the limit. Abundance mentality all the way. Some people don’t achieve a lot in their lives because they don’t think they can have a lot in their lives. If I didn’t gain this mindset, I wouldn’t have the courage to pursue my dream of self-publishing my first novel I Killed My Friends and It Thrilled Me for the entire world to read. After all, I didn’t have any connection to the writing and publishing industry. That alone was enough reason for anyone to get discouraged.Read More
I can’t recall all my personal victories I let pass without my acknowledging of them.
I didn’t keep track. I didn’t even count.
I never did.
For most of my life, I thought the only thing worth celebrating was the attainment of the ultimate goal. All the preluding notes toward the grand orchestral finish didn’t warrant any mention, recognition, or merit. As long as the big prize is still yet to be coveted, there’s no reason to celebrateRead More
First, it's also persistence.
Howard Schultz, in trying to raise private equity money, was turned down 224 times. That's a lot of rejection! Most of us give up on something after three failures or rejections. Some even do after giving things a try only once, a horrible thing to even think about. We completely forget that not everything aligns right in the first attempt. Imagine if Schultz gave up on his 223rd time. I will probably never discover the heaven that is Americano if that's the case.Read More
I'm sorry that your heart is broken.
You didn't ask for it. Nobody does. Who in their right mind asks for heartbreak, their hearts ripped out from their chest, thrown to the muddy ground, and stepped on? Because of your frustration, you pick up the telephone and call the radio DJ. He asks you to share your story, live on air, for everybody to hear either for amusement or concern. He is thinking whether to make fun of you or offer some words of warmth before he plays that sad love song that will surely make you cry, the exact thing you hope you don't have to do. You can't help it. Tears stream down your cheeks as you air out your tragedy to a stranger on the phone and to strangers across the air waves.Read More
Horror aside, I found the film beautiful and fascinating at the same time (Confession: The film is my introduction to the Attack on Titan universe). It made me ponder about the smallness of life. Us humans think we are the best thing on this planet since sliced bread. But with just one swoop of a hungry Titan, we become breakfast, lunch, dinner, or a midnight snack perhaps. Our life ends in the most disgusting and horrifying manner, no chance of it being ever romanticised. It's one of the worst ways to expire from Earth.Read More